Feelings

I feel better. He wrote me. It only took two days. Seemed like forever. It does help my mood out a little bit, this. I think I was just starting to feel completely alone. And angry. Everyone else's dreams are coming true but mine and it just doesn't seem fair. I felt that it might seem like something was wrong with me, even though I'm pretty sure there's not. Still, why does it work out for those around me, but not for me.

I think this discipline of waiting for him to contact me was good. It helped me to put things back into perspective a bit. He's a wonderful friend. A wonderful friend that I had six wonderful weeks with, a great fling, if you will. I'd love for there to be more... someday... but for now- he's a wonderful friend. I think maybe he just doesn't need as much contact as I do. Would he always be this way, like in a relationship? Or is it just the way he is now, because of the way we are? He didn't find me online, but now I have leave to say hello next time I see him. I feel relieved that he didn't forget about me. Crazy, I know, but I had that fear.